yes, even monday's can be good!

Today was great for being a Monday! Found out I got the job I applied/got an interview for at the Registrar Office on campus. It's only seven hours a week, which is perfect. Also, I was asked to do this thing with new people in lcf where I send out e-mails welcoming them, and also seeing if they want to meet up for lunch or coffee or whatever. I enjoy this very much! I also go to hang out in the lcf office with some friends, which was hysterical. My two classes were easy enough today as well. I went out to dinner with Jake and Elizabeth, which is always fun. I had a great workout tonight at the gym, and tomorrow I am going to die going up stairs and my legs are going to shake. Haha. Recently I've noticed just how busy I am going to be this semester. I'm excited because it's all fabulous stuff, but very time consuming! But, I know I can handle it all with my God looking out for me! Also, tonight after our workout, Mary and I were singing at the top of our lungs in the shower. It's the little things in life that make me happy. :)

first weekend back!

This weekend was SO much fun. The first weekend back definitely made me realize exactly how much I missed it here. On Friday me, Mary, Tony, Taylor, Nate, Kait, and Emily were planning on going to the movies, but we got there too late. So instead we went to Sweet Frog! Yes, we did get one here! :) Love! Then we went to Tommy's 21st birthday party. That was a ton of fun! There were so many people there, and in fact a majority of them were my friends, which was awesome. It was great to be with so many friends playing games and dancing! On Saturday I went on a lunch date to Stikfire with Amylynn and Mary, which was lovely. Later on, me, Nate, Tony, Taylor, Mary, and Kait went to Cici's (yes free drink for being in college) and to the dollar theater to see Due Date, which was hysterical. We then came back and watched He's Just Not That Into You and just hung out. It was really laid back, but so fun. Today I went to the first lcf service of the year, which was really, really good! I can't wait to dive deeper with God this semester! Afterwards, I went to a lunch meeting about being a leader for lcf next year. I feel really called to do this, so I hope I get it! After that was the little black dress party for sororities. It was cool to meet some of the girls in sororities, and hang out with my friends that were already in them. Later on, I went on a dinner date with Kait to Panera and then Starbuck's, which was really nice. Love her. Then me, Mary, Taylor, and Tony watched the football games and just hung out. I'm sorry this is so long, but I really just wanted to remember the jist of this weekend because it was SO good, and SO fun! I feel like I have finally made really, really good friends here. The friends that I can trust, and do crazy fun stuff with, and it makes me really excited! Because there's a difference between having friends, and having good friends. I love LC. :)

he's just not that into you.

Tonight I did many things, but the last thing I did was watch "He's Just Not That Into You" with a bunch of friends in my dorm room. And it's quite funny because I actually not only thought it was a good movie, but I got something out of it. Go watch it if you haven't yet, because it's quite good. But here's the thing...there was some lessons learned from this movie. The thing is if a guy likes you, he will try his hardest to be with you...he will try everything to make it happen. It's not about girls looking for all the "signs" or whatever. It's like girls try to dissect every little thing a guy does and twist it to be like "oh my goodness I think he might like me." And I guess I never really thought too much about that kind of stuff until when I watched it. It's not up to the girl to try to make the guy like her or anything like that. When it comes down to it, that guy is either going to make it happen and try to win you over, or he's just not that into you. Stop trying to make things that are not, because it will cause you less heartache in the end. It is not a girls responsibility to try to send cute texts or anything along those sorts...that's his job. Ladies, don't try to figure out if he likes you over stupid little "signs" or put so much effort into it if he's not doing anything. You deserve better, and there is someone out there for you. Remember, if he wants you, he will make it happen. Don't wait around forever for him to realize you're worth it...if he takes too long to realize that, he's a goner because you were perfect from the very beginning. Sorry if I bursted anyone's bubble tonight. Hahaha.

I'm just really happy. That is all. :)

Life is good.

I love you Lynchburg College.

I love my friends here.

I love having my car here.

Although the heater broke, it makes me so grateful for when I do have heat and am not cold.

I love my classes so far.

I love going to dinner at La Ca and laughing with Arturro.

I love going to lunch with lots of people.

I love still have Jersey Shore watching parties.

I love my room.

I love my huge bin of food.

I love my schedule of glory.

Basically, what I'm trying to say is I love life. Reflect on your life and try to recognize all the good things that are happening in your life, and don't dwell on the bad. We don't do this enough. Look at life and be so thankful for what you have. God gave you this life for you to live it and love it. :)

oh hey LC.

So I am officially back at Lynchburg College. I missed this place so much. Well...not necessarily the place, just the people and everything that comes along with college. I got to drive my car back here, which I will have for a month and I am quite excited! I took a scenic ride back here with Emily which was fun. I then started to unpack all my stuff. Holy cow. I also forgot to take the cheese out of my fridge...it smells horrible, like gagging horrible. Tomorrow will be the day I go and get baking powder to put in that thang. As I was unpacking I got to see quite a lot of my friends and received huge hugs that make me smile. :) Also, Mary and I have reunited and I love it. While we were unpacking our stuff, our heater/air conditioner died...RIP poor Bradley. We named him Bradley because he would talk to us. Haha. So now we are without heat or air. Work order tomorrow. Fail. But later me, Mary and Taylor went to dinner at Subway and got some groceries at Kroger (because I have a car now and can take leisurely trips like these. Woop!) This was quite fun. I really did miss this place. I missed the people, this room, the independence, structure, the events, and so much more. I did not miss having to walk down the hall and use a community bathroom, or the food from the caf. Tomorrow I will eat from there again. Yay...not! But, I will like going to lunch/dinner with my friendsies constantly! Oh I love being home...I mean back here. So weird to call it home! But, I do miss my friends from RVA! Dawww!

This is just me thinking aloud. I want to loose weight. But this time, I want to do it for me. No one else but myself. I want to feel healthier and better about myself. I do NOT want to be skinny...nor will I ever be. Shoot, I got some curves going on for that, which I happen not to mind...nor have I hear any complaints. Bahahaha. I want to be able to look in the mirror and just be comfortable. My goal is not to lose a number. My goal is to look at myself and just be happy with what I am. I want to be able to wear skinny jeans without having to wear a longer shirt to cover up my thunder thighs. I also want to be able to wear a form fitting dress or t-shirt. And yes, I am going to have the Beyonce look when that happens...by her curves I mean....if you get what I'm saying. Sorry, everything about those curves are rather large. Always will be. Hahahahahaha. I'm not complaining. It's little things like that that make me want to lose weight. Not a number, just a happy level...for me, and me only. I just want to be HEALTHY. Please do not read this and think that I am unhappy, or have an eating disorder. First, I am happy, I just would like to lose some weight to be healthier. Second, I could never have an eating disorder...a.) I like food too much...I ENJOY food. b.) I have a phobia of barf. Haha. And for any girls reading this, if anyone has ever made you feel fat, please tell them to shove it. If you are happy with you, work it! And don't tell yourself you need to lose weight because of other people you see. Everyone's different. Never, ever, let anyone else be the reason you want to change. Do something for your own self for once...it makes things a whole lot more fun. :)

momma.

My mom is my biggest supporter, my biggest fan, and will always be there for me not matter what stupid stuff I do. She makes me laugh, which is probably where I get all these giggles from. She is the biggest prankster ever, which has also been passed along to me. My mom is also the strongest person I have ever met. Throughout the past year she has taken on so many challenges. Yet, she does not think about herself first, ever. She constantly is trying to make sure everyone around her is okay before herself. She is the most amazing person. We may argue now and again, but who doesn't? My mom is someone I can confide in, and she doesn't judge me. She also always tells me that she does not have a clue how she got me...she says she is one of the most conservative people ever and I'm some "tree hugger." Even when I was younger and in Kindergarten, the one thing I wanted in life was "to make the world and cleaner and safer place." Still, she loves me despite our differences. She continues to make me happy every day of my life. I am so grateful for everything she has done for me, given up for me, and continues to do for me. She is my rock. Without her I would be lost. I also wouldn't be the Christian I am today if she did not make me go to youth group, because I hated it with a passion my first few times. I owe her the thanks for the woman I have become, and still become today. I love you mom.

love.

I love my amazing mom. She is one of the strongest people I know, and she will be there for me no matter what. The one person I can always count on. She makes me laugh, and I love her so much. I love my family. They can be a little bothersome sometimes, but they genuinely care about me. I love my friends. Goodness, I honestly don't know what I would do without them. They keep me sane, are there for me through rough times, and constantly make me laugh. Not to mention they keep me from being bored in my life. I love our random hangouts, and all the crazy stuff we do together. I love Kim. She's been my best friend for eighteen years, and I know that we will be until the day we die. We've always been there for each other through everything, and we've mainly done everything together. She's my other half. God help whoever my husband is, because he's basically going to marry her too...like I would let her sleep in our bed every night if she wanted. Hahaha. I love when my things are clean and organized because I feel like I can get more stuff done. I love my car because I love the freedom I have, being able to go anywhere I want. I love Lynchburg College. I have made so many fantastic friends there, and I really do miss being there. I love how small it is, and how we have so many events going on all the time. I love being able to see gorgeous sunsets, and the snow fall outside. I just love life.

the future.

It is so weird planning out things that are going to happen in my life. I was talking to my friend Rachel about it tonight. I am so not used to it. I'm such a go with the flow kind of person, and I'm not used to having to plan out my life. I'm already planning out what I should do this summer...trying to be a camp counselor at Jack and Jill preschool for my job, summer school classes to get some Gen Eds out of the way, and volunteering at MCV for physical therapy to give me some experience and to hopefully help me get into MCV in three and a half years. Even that is weird to me...planning on doing something this summer to help me do something in three and a half years. It's really quite odd. And I'm trying to plan out all this stuff for next semester...well at least thinking about what I want to do and what not. Sororities, whether to be a connection leader or a bonner, lcf leader, possible campus job, and different clubs. It's going to be a busy semester! Yet, it's going to be fun at the same time! It makes me really excited to go back to school. And I can't want to see everyone! It's going to be sad leaving RVA, but exciting to go back at the same time!

worship.

Tonight at 1822 was a worship night. I absolutely love it. It was so nice to be back in that room where I've spent countless hours of my teenage years. I felt at home, and I was comfortable. I like how its so dark in there. I feel like it's just me and God. I love how it's so loud, I can finally hear myself think and listen for God. I love how there are so many people worshipping Him. I love how on fire for God I am right now. This worship session could not have come at a better time. I needed this. This is how I connect with God to the fullest, during worship. Tonight made me happy and I really enjoyed it more than I thought I would. I am eternally grateful for how good my Father is, even though I am really not worthy. I really have to give every single thing in my life to Him for all the be right in my life. This is not an easy task to do, but I've realized I must do it. So, I am working on it. Tonight has made me think, and it has made me worship like I've needed to worship for awhile. For this, I am grateful.

prayer.

I have to tell you, I am not one to complain about how much money my family does or does not have. But, this has been a whirl wind of change in the last year or so. And it's not easy for my mom to be a single parent. It seems like nothing can go right...my car needed to be fixed, the dishwasher just broke, and I found out tonight that my bottom retainer snapped (yes I still wear a retainer.) And on top of all that I'm in college, which requires a LOT of money. It's just not easy for me, and I feel helpless. I honestly don't want to tell my mom about my retainer, and in all honesty I don't know if I will. I can't stand the fact that my mom probably feels like the world is on her shoulders because it sure is not easy to run a household on one budget. I just don't know what to do and all I really want to do is cry. I wish that things in life came easy...not for me, but for my mom. She's doing the best she can and I can not thank her enough for all she does. But, I'd be lying if I knew this was not a struggle at times. I just ask that you would pray for my mom and pray that everything will get worked out. There is honestly nothing else I can do. So my friends, this is what I ask of you. Please.

new year!

Well, it's 2011 people! I had a great New Year's with lots of people I love, and also a fabulous New Year's Day! I'm excited for this year. I hope it will be even better than 2010 and filled with crazy new adventures. I really just have one resolution, but it's not really a "new year" resolution, it's just kind of a life resolution. I mean, I started it before 2011 so I figure it isn't really a new year resolution. Haha. I want to be more in shape. Like seriously. I've tried to do it too many times before and it just kind of goes off the deep end. I really honestly want to stick to it. I'm just going to try to eat better and not so much, and also work out. Now don't get me wrong, I do NOT want to be skinny...skinny is gross. Sorry. I've definitely got all the right curves in all the right places, if you know what I mean...and I'd like to keep them. Hahahaha. But I just want to be healthy and little! So, if you see me eating fast food or something, remind me not to do that! Haha. But for 2011 I just want it to be crazy fun with my friends! I want to take even more pictures, and get better at it. I want to impact people's lives. I want to become closer to some people. I want to be carefree. I want to live. Now, these aren't resolutions, just things I'd like to see in 2011. :)