unexpected.

This morning I went to the church here on campus. It's called lcf (Lynchburg College Fellowship). I wasn't exactly sure what to expect. But I went and it was really, really good. The people were SO nice and super friendly. The speaker gave a really cool sermon on justice. It's the first time in a long time I've been able to hold my attention to an entire sermon, and I really got a lot out of it. I'm really excited to keep going back there so I can enjoy something different than WEAG. Don't get me wrong, I love WEAG and all, but I am soooo stoked on this church right now. I'm also going to go to these group things that are kind of like bible studies, but cooler. I'm really excited for what this is going to bring me. I'm ready for a different kind of experience. I've been to WEAG all my life, and it basically hasn't changed, so I'm kind of used to it. This is all new people, new worship, new speaker, new style and flow of things. So different. I love it. I also loved doing all my homework outside on my Brasil blanket. Kait sat out there with me for about and hour, but she got distracted too easily and went back inside. I took a nap out there too after she left. Then Alec came and chilled with me for awhile and we talked about lots of things after he did his homework in the library. It was gorgeous outside under a tree today. This will happen again until it's too cold. I also love having someone cook me home cooked meals. :) And singing kareoke with lots of people. And almost getting stuck in elevators because Max wouldn't let me press the button for my floor, so of course I had to tackle him. Thus, the elevator isn't moving and the doors aren't opening so we have panic written all over our faces thinking we're stuck in there...it let us out a few seconds after. Haha. College is amazing. Everyone should come visit here! Two classes tomorrow starting at 11! Woot! Night lovely people. :)

acoustic.

Oh my goodness. College is just an amazing experience. I can't get over it. I have seriously met some of the coolest people. Today was my second day of classes. My acting class is so legit. There's only eight of us in there and it's so fun already. I'm stoked to take that class! I hung out with Kait and Amanda for awhile today too...big surprise. Kait is pretty much my college bestie. Love her to death. After that I hung out with Emily for a little bit shopping around the bookstore. Then a bunch of us went to a baseball game that's close to here. It was a lot of fun! Afterwards I hung out in Gillie's dorm with Gillie, Emily, and Jake. I swear Emily and Gillie act like they're drunk when they're exhausted. Haha. After they decided to go to sleep me and Jake talked about our lives for a little while. I love real talk. People don't talk about their lives enough now days. Then after that some of my friends and new people I just met were playing their guitars in the middle of campus and singing songs. I joined them in singing. It was actually a ton of fun. This was late at night. We came back in around 2AM. Something about singing in a fairly big group of people under the stars late at night is so much fun. I'm so glad I've found these people here! It was also pretty funny because all these drunk/high people would walk by and start singing or doing random crazy stuff. Made me laugh...also something that made me laugh. I walked in the bathroom and theres this guy peeing in there. Obviously drunk. I busted out laughing. I couldn't help it. Oh college. How I adore you. :)

reppin dat 804.

So I'm going to blog about yesterday because I got home at 2:30 AM, so I figured I should go to bad considering today was the first day of classes. Whoopsies. Yesterday was so much fun. Probably one of the funnest days here so far. We had all those random seminars and crap like that. But, it was the last of them! Praise! Then me, Gillie, Emily, Kait, and Amanda rode on the city bus once again, and it was much more busier than the other night! We also saw one of the guys that we met the other night...random! We went to the most ghetto hair store ever, not gonna lie. Gillie and Amanda got hair dye to die pieces of their hair blue. Then we found these 804 hats, so the three of us from RVA got them. Haha. Reppin the 804 in Lynchburg! We ate at McDonald's for lunch which was yummy. We came back and had our building and hall meetings which was so boring. So glad all these meetings are over! After our meetings me, Gillie, Walter, Henry, Justin, Jake, Lydia, Kait, and Amanda went out to a mexi restaurant. We enjoyed driving around blasting music and singing and dancing at people in their cars. It made me think of summer. People love us. Haha. Afterwards we all hung out in dorms. We took late night walks around campus and hung out outside by the field. We drove around late and night. We did crazy things last night! It was so much fun. I love college so much. People here are so funny too. Love them. And I still love you all back home and yall that are out and about! LET ME KNOW WHATS GOING IN YOUR LIFE! :)

new adventures.

So today was another day at college...quite fun might I say. We all got stuck in a downpour and ran across campus together to our dorms. That was hysterical. The guys thought it was funny at least...some of the girls were going "oh my gosh my hair!" and so on. Not that type of girl, not gonna lie. I found it funny. There was lots of other stuff from today that I could write...but I won't because then this would be insanely long. But today was filled with adventures. The highlight of the night was getting out of Lynchburg College. We took the city bus around and went to Walmart. We were going to see a movie but that last bus back to our college didn't fit the time we wanted to see a movie. So, we ended up going to Walmart instead. In all honesty we were kind of just riding the bus to ride the bus. Haha. Let me just say that riding the bus is NOT easy. We had to get off of buses to get on new ones to get to our destination. We did in fact get on the wrong bus and ended up hitchhiking...yes. I know that that sounds bad. But we made it there! Plus, it was someone from Liberty cause that's where we ended up! Haha. You also meet lots of different people on these buses. We met some people who were students on the bus too...might I say some of these students were quite attractive and digits were given out. Haha. There were also sketchy people on this bus. Good thing we were all in a group! I also am now going to be muscle woman after this trip. I was carrying drinks up all these hills and stairs like it was my job. Plus I looked like I was carrying lots of alcohol which made me laugh. Can I just say that I am exhausted. I stay out late doing stuff with people, but we have to be up super early. Tonight had to be an early night. So yes, I will be going to bed soon after midnight. Love you all! :)

love it.

I really love college life right now. My roommate seems nice enough, and we can carry on with conversations and all. We aren't going to be best friends I don't think, which actually works out better when rooming in college in my opinion. I have my friends and she has hers. Hopefully it continues like this, or gets better. I love the majority of all the people here. Everyone is so friendly! I've made some great new friends. Some that I think I will have for a long time. I just really like college. I like the independence. I like the food here (Shocker! College food is good!). I like my bed, it's actually quite comfy. I like my friends that I've made and continue to make. I like the events that they have going on. I like that I can go with one of my friends out to coffee then have random people come up and talk to us and make new friends. I like how people start opening up about their lives and it gets deep and you get to know people better. I just really like it here. Maybe I'm getting excited too early about it and all, but as of now I really do love it. Here are a few pictures of my dorm! And a few pictures of some of my new friends! I still miss you/love all my friends back home! Text me, call me, skype me, communicate with me! :)

here.

Well, I made it to Lynchburg College ladies and gentleman! My room is all put up pretty much except for my pictures, because I can't find them. :( I will be putting up pictures of my dorm as soon as I do find them though! I want you to see the finished product. Haha. The past two days have been good so far. Yesterday moved everything in. Went to dinner with the one person I do know here, Gillie. I am actually quite thankful for that! Can I just say that the food here is really quite delicious. I had manicotti, salad, and some pears...Oh. And can I just say the have self serve ice cream/fro-yo with some toppings. It's like a mini Sweet Frog! Woot woot! We also hung out and watched Jersey Shore in her room. Today I had orientation all day and met some really cool people that I've already hung out with tonight. Making friends isn't quite as scary as I thought it was going to be! I like most of the people here. Everyone's so friendly! I would write all about today but I don't want this blog to be even longer and bore you! Haha. Tomorrow will be A LOT different because the majority of the freshman are moving in tomorrow. I had to come two days before because I haven't been to orientation yet. So hopefully everything keeps going well! Tomorrow I meet my roommate too. I really, really hope we get along and she's nice! Prayin for it! But, don't fret, I haven't forgot about you guys! I still miss you and love you dearly! :) Tonight my choice of snack is all-natural whole grain chocolate chip bunny grahams! Oh the life of a college kid...and yes, that college kid is actually me! Eep!

gone.

Tomorrow morning I leave to embark on a new chapter in my life. I will be going to Lynchburg College tomorrow at 9:30 AM. I am excited and nervous. I'm excited because it's a new chapter in my life. I'm excited to be around new people and experience different things. I also can't wait to meet new people. I am nervous because it is something so new and I don't know what to expect. I'm nervous about making friends. I'm nervous about living with my roommate. I'm also really, really sad about leaving behind all my friends. I can't believe I won't be seeing them every day. It's so weird to me. I love them all SO much, and we BETTER keep in touch! Tomorrow is the first day of the next chapter in my life. Lynchburg College will be my new home, but RVA will always be in my heart and my real home. :)

college.

Yes, I am leaving in three days for college. That blows my mind. I'm a nervous wreck. But, at the same time I get super excited thinking about it. I've been researching all these different clubs and activities and stuff so hopefully I can make some friends there too! I'm always nervous I won't make friends, but I just have to remember everyone is in the same group as me and we're all starting out fresh! And for goodness sake, this is not high school, praise the Lord! One of the things I've been looking at is this thing called lcf (Lynchburg College Fellowship). It's basically church on Sunday mornings and they have smaller groups at night during the week. It seems like a pretty cool Christian group. Also, I've been looking at Intervarsity, which is basically like the college version of Young Life. I've always wanted to go to Young Life, but it was always on Wednesday's. So this can be a cool thing to go to. There's also this thing called Student Activities Board. They plan all different kinds of events. Some of the stuff they planned last year was a group to go see Taylor Swift in concert, trips to Busch Gardens, and so many other cool things. I think I'd be good at that because I plan a lot of stuff now. Also, I'd get to meet a cool group of people that can think of other stuff to do that's fun besides partying. Haha. There's a club called Love 146 that is basically a group devoted to raising money to assist victims of child sex trafficking. I think that would be such a neat group to be a part of. Another one is International Society which is basically just a club to promote diversity throughout Lynchburg College. I love diversity, so why not? There is also Sierra Student Coalition. Their main goal is to change the College's energy plan to one that is run off renewable resources in the long term. I'm all about saving our earth. Then there's this group called STAND (A Student Anti-Genocide Coalition) which is people trying to bring awareness about and action against modern day genocides and human rights atrocities. Then there's Lynchburg College Pre-Health Club which is more of hands on for people who want to be in health professional fields. Might do that if I'm still thinking about being a physical therapist. I'm also almost tempted to go to the dance dance revolution club...yes, we even have that! Now I know I definatley won't be able to go to all of these, but they all sound really interesting! And I think I'd be able to meet cool people there. These are the kinds of things that make me excited about college! PS-sorry this blog was so long! Haha.

yes.

Perfect picture for how I feel right now.

it's over.

Well, it's the end of the road for youth group. It's been a fun ride. I honestly don't know who I would be today without it. I mean yes, there are definatley things I did not agree with and things that agitated me and still agitate me about it, but I loved it none the less. I have made some of my best friends there. Our class is so tight and the majority of us have been together for so many years. I admit, we probably look pretty scary to an outsider. It's not often you find that big amount of people that genuinely love each other and are really close. We don't mean to be exclusive, and we've gotten better at it as we've grown up. We're all just best friends. It's just how it is. I also learned to branch out in youth group. I am so glad I did, because I have some of the best friends because of it. Yes, it was hard to balance the different friendships, but I made it work. And when I plan things I invite everyone now...it's kind of cool to see everyone mesh together that don't usually hang out. I love each and every one of you. Thank you so much for loving me for me, and for always being there for me. This youth group accepted me for who I am. I never felt like I had to be something I wasn't. I'm just so grateful I had this opportunity to go to this youth group and meet amazing people. I'm also blessed to be able to do the things I've done because of this youth group. I mean, I've been all the way to Brazil because of it! As I go off to college I want to keep in touch with all of you. I really can't imagine not seeing my friends every day...it's going to be so sad! I love all of you! :)

scared.

Okay, I'm not going to lie. I'm scared of going to college. Don't get me wrong, I'm super stoked about all the new beginnings and everything...but I'm also afraid of all the new things. I'm afraid of the things I'm going to have to deal with. What if I don't make good friends? What if I don't like Lynchburg College? What if my friends back home forget about me? And what if I don't get along with my roommate? And all these other things that cross my mind. Sometimes I tend to panic and think about all the bad things that could happen. I never think about all the good things that could happen. I automatically think of all the things that could go wrong. I need to stop worrying. One of my good friends that I don't get to see as often as I should told me recently that he realized I'm a worrier and he doesn't like to see me worry. I can't help it though! I worry about my friends and stuff they do. If they're safe, if they're driving when they shouldn't be, etc. I just don't want anything taken away from me that I love. I also worry about the future and the unknown...aka COLLEGE right now. I just need to think about the good things in life that could happen...then maybe I wouldn't worry so much! Eeep!

prayer.

First before I blog about anything else, please keep my papa in your prayers. He had a heart attack on Friday and will be having surgery tomorrow. I forget what it's called but they will make an incision in his leg and go up into his heart from there to see how much damage there is. Hopefully there is not a lot. If that is the case, the cardiologist will put a trigger in there to take away the clotting. If there is a lot of clotting, they will have do to another surgery this week. That will be open heart surgery. This is a pretty scary thing. He is also terrified. Tomorrow the surgery he is having isn't nearly as risky and is pretty common, but he is so scared like he's going to die. I can't let my mind wander to think the worst because then I will stay up all night worrying about everything. I just have to trust in God that everything will be okay, which is very difficult for me to do now days because of the things that have happened in my life recently. But, I just have to have faith. Just pray for him cause I know this is hard for him. Also, please just pray that everything will go well and he won't have to have open heart surgery. Thanks!

no.

I'm not ready to leave yet. I don't want to leave my friends. I love them too much.

content.

So, the other night after the good ole El Chaps, I had some good conversation with some of my good friends. One thing that got me thinking though was when Elsbeth asked me who I liked...or something of that sort. And it made me think about it. I don't like anyone at the moment (and in all honesty haven't really since before choir tour) and I'm perfectly content with that. I'm content with not being in a relationship right now or liking someone. I leave for college in two weeks and it would suck to have to leave someone. I feel bad for my friends that are in relationships right now. That has to suck to leave their boyfriend or girlfriend. But, I also am happy for them because they have someone that genuinely cares about them. I'm happy just the way I am, riding solo, and I like being happy about that! I like having my really good guy friends in my life though...but I don't like any of them like that. Haha. Which brings up another thing I thought of...why is it that a guy and a girl can't be really good friends without people thinking that one of them likes the other or they both like each other? It's really quite obnoxious actually. I feel like I have a decent amount of really good guy friends, and I feel blessed to have them in my life. But whenever I started to become good friends with them, I know people have thought (because they told me) that I liked them or that we liked each other...and then they wouldn't believe me when I told them otherwise. Isn't it okay for a girl and guy to hang out by themselves without having feelings for each other? I mean...I realize this is high school and girls freak out over stuff like this, but in all honesty I'd rather hang out with guys than girls. Less drama. I don't do well with drama. Not a drama queen. Sorry, 99% of other girls out there! My close girl friends that I have usually don't have drama either. Love them for that! :) But really, why is it that people find it so hard to fathom that a guy and a girl can't be good friends without liking each other? Thoughts about that? I've always wondered why that is so. Haha. I don't know. It's 3am and my brain is running through lots of thoughts!

hug.

I love hugs. It's me telling someone I love them...not necessarily IN love with them, just that I love them. Because I love mostly everyone. :) I'm not sure if that makes any sense to anyone else, but it does in my brain. Haha. I'm a hugger. Some people are high fivers, but I like hugs. Real hugs, not side hugs. Don't even bother trying to hug me if you're going to give me a side hug. So next time you see someone, give them a hug...it makes their day better. :)