finally.

My computer wouldn't let me log in on this thang so I haven't been able to post stuff! But it finally has let me, so I'm going to start blogging again. :) I have enjoyed this three day weekend so much. I'm so over school it's not even funny. Luckily, this is the last week of school for me! This weekend made me so stoked for summer. David's party on Friday was so much fun! And Saturday was an adventure! Going to Belle Isle at 11:30 at night and crossing that bridge...quite scary but insanely fun. Chilling with the coolest people for lunch on Sunday, and then hanging out with some more cool people that night. Oh! And my last day for my job was on Saturday! I'm so relieved. I just was kind of over it. I will miss some of the people there, but I will definitely not miss some of the up tight, witchy people with a b that come in there. And now I get to live up my summer! Non-stop parties the first two weeks in June, graduation, beach week, choir tour, Brasil! This summer is going to be the best summer of my life. :) I'm so stoked. I can't wait for this summer and to hang out with all you cool people. :)

friendsies!

I seriously love my friends. Thank you to everyone who's been there for me in my life. I seriously don't know how I would make it in life without you. You guys are there to comfort me when I'm upset. I couldn't thank you enough for that. You make me constantly smile. All of my friends have huge, different personalities. And I love every single one of them. Thank your for being understanding with me when I screw up. I can't thank you guys enough for everything you do for me. Words can not express how much I love each and every one of you. Having it be senior graduation in church today made me realize how much I love all you guys. :) I thought about how I was going to leave all my friends on stage, and all my friends in other grades too. I love every single one of you guys and I don't want to leave any of you. That's going to be the hardest part about going away. Promise me you won't forget me and you'll still talk to me and we can skype and you'll come visit me at college, because I love you more than you know and I don't think I can handle losing any of my relationships. Love all of you! :) Oh, and if I even tried to post pictures with all of my friends, it would turn into an album on my blog. So, I'm just going to put up one from today of the seniors, but I love everyone else who's in different grades/in college! :)

nothing.

Sometimes I just don't want to express my feelings and I'd rather keep them in. It's really unhealthy, I know. But it's habit. Plus sometimes there's never anyone who actually wants to listen. And some things I really just want to deal with by myself. That's bad too. Oh well. But, I love how a song can sum up the way you feel. :) I feel like this is a depressing post, but I don't mean it to be! haha.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lXRLEyIoJZA

let's go!

Being healthy has consumed me right now. I'm eating 100% healthy and working out like crazy. It's almost summer. I'm determined to be healthy by then. So if you see me try to eat anything bad, and I mean ANYTHING. Just look at me at say "I thought you were being healthy?" I won't be offended. I will hug you and thank you. Tonight I watched Grey's Anatomy while on the treadmill. It was glorious. I ran during the show and fast walked during the commercials. 4.5 miles. Scary thing is, I enjoyed it. I actually like to run now...that's scary. I think it's also because I get a moment to myself. No one bothers me, and I get to think about things. It's a beautiful thing. So, health kick, let's go!

brasil.

Brasil, I miss you on days like this. I miss all the people I met, the friends I've made there. Talking over the internet and through video chat just isn't the same. I miss how everything was perfect when I was there. My mind was at peace. I didn't care about facebook, my cell phone, or any materialistic things. I was just enjoying the presence of my friends and all the wonderful relationships I had made with people. I learned so much while I was there. I got a new perspective on life. Everyone there was so happy just with hanging out and being together. The trip in Brasil was the best ten days of my life. I met so many amazing people there and continue to have wonderful relationships with them. I miss everything about Brasil right now. My friends there, the kids at the orphanage, working at the trade school to make someone's dreams come true some day, the view from the top of the roof, the food, the bus rides, the church, the wake up music, the tons of stairs you had to run up, and everything else. I miss every little thing about Brasil. I can say that I was 100% happy while I was there, and that's the happiest I've ever been. It's not often that I can say I'm 100% happy and not worried about anything. Actually, I think Brasil is the only time I've felt like that. I miss you, Brasil, but I'll be back in 8 weeks, and I'm so excited. :)

calming.

All this rain has made me so relaxed. I think we all need rainy days at some point in our life to help us be calm. We program our lives to be so busy and jam-packed that we hardly get to breathe. Something as natural as rain seems to relax everyone. I needed that today. School is really stressing me out, but the rain helped me to be calm. I just took the day off from everything hectic in my life and had a good dinner with my momma and relaxed. Well, I went to the gym and ran for awhile too. It felt marvelous. I absolutely HATE running, but the more I loose weight and work out, the more tolerant I become towards running. Maybe it's because I'm more in shape and I can do it without feeling like I'm dying. I also took off from bible study tonight, because I feel like I just needed some me time. But I am going to go to 1822 tomorrow! I'm stoked! I haven't been since Ascend the Hill came! I don't know who even goes to that, so I might be a loner but I don't mind. :)

healthy lovin.

I feel at peace right now. I haven't felt like this in a long time. I just had such a good day. I got to hang out with people really close to my heart. And people that I love but don't always get to hang out with, and I'm getting to know better. I think it's just because I love to love. I like to love on people and hear their stories about life. It makes me happy. Even when I don't feel loved by anyone, I still like to love other people. I also got a good workout at the gym today. Working out and being healthy has started to become part of my lifestyle and it feels so good. :) If anyone has any really tasty, healthy recipes let me know because I'd love to try them! I'm trying to go to sleep earlier tonight so that I can get up early tomorrow morning and work out again! Oh, and I would absolutely love to have someone come and work out with me. I'd like to try the workouts where you don't really feel like your working out, but more of just having fun. So let me know if you would like to do any of the following with me: bicycling, kayaking, hiking, walk around belle isle, playing tennis, zumba, yoga. :)

new.

Well this is a brand new thing for me. I decided to start a blog. I don't know why. Maybe to actually let my feelings out instead of keeping them in. And now that the fad is over with getting a blog, I felt like now would be a fine time to get one. I don't quite know what I'm supposed to talk about on here but I'm going to give it a whirl. As of right now, I feel overwhelmed. School is killing me, and all I want to do is graduate and be done. It's really funny actually. When I was in middle school and even throughout high school I never wanted to become a senior. That would mean leaving everything I know and love behind. But now that I actually am a senior, I can't wait to be done. Yes, a part of me is very sad to be leaving. But the other part of me is so excited to get away and do my own thing. I just feel like there has to be something else to life than the life I'm living. Something deeper. Something that I love. Something where someone, anyone, actually appreciates me. I'm ready.